Once again I must apologize for such a long time between posts.  Even as I sit here to write I can not seem to find the words.  They flow through my mind relentlessly.  When it comes time to put them down, I can not make sense of them.  Such are my days.  My mind jumps from one thing to the other.  I can’t remember anything.  I am smiling one second and crying the next.  Focus seems impossible.  Again I say that I will write more.  I have pages and pages written down on paper, on my phone, and in my mind.  In my heart.  In my soul.  Since Lachlan’s passing I have numbed my way through the holidays; which I will write about.  I have looked a new year in the face; which I will write about.  Broken heart for Valentine’s Day…  And now I must celebrate his third birthday without him. There are no words for this one.  I suppose I have been in a bit of a bubble.  I only half let myself hear anything, feel anything, think anything.  Protection.  Trying to keep faith that once I get through this I will once again allow myself to feel.  And then to write.

So for now…If you will, help me honor Lachlan by celebrating him on his birthday.  Tomorrow, February 17th, help me spread ‘Lachlan’s Light.’  Simply do something, anything, to brighten someone’s day.  Something small like buying coffee for a stranger, call an old friend or a relative you haven’t talked to, or do something grand…. no matter.  The goal is to bring smiles.  To light up faces and hearts on the day that his precious soul brought light to this world.  There are other ways you can celebrate his birthday; eat his favorite- Waffle House or Japanese food, cashews or nutter butters, display or plant sunflowers (his favorite), play his favorite song ‘Big Green Tractor’…. You can also join us in lighting a candle for Lachlan at 8:25 pm, the time he was born.  Light a candle. Say a prayer for him.  And smile in the warm glow of Lachlan’s Light.

If you read this post after February 17th, you can do these things ANY time.  It would be wonderful to make someone smile every day!

If you would like to tell me about something you did to make someone smile, please email me at  a69mckendree@gmail.com.  I would love to hear about it.

More posts coming very soon.  I promise!  I know, I know…….

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Now go spread Lachlan’s Light!!!